My Pregnancy Excitement

With Hayden, it was the first everything. I enjoyed it from seeing the positive pregnancy test all the way to the end of my pregnancy and beginning of our new life. Yes, the newborn stage was hard but I loved it and I love my 3 year old so much at this age too BUT I am so excited to have another baby again. I never thought I could enjoy the "second" experience, not the baby itself, I knew I would love my kids the same, but the experience I never thought I could enjoy the same because it wasn't the first. I was so wrong! It is like a whole new love for this pregnancy. I got to have an u/s at 12 weeks with this one and I did not get the the first time and it was beautiful. To see something that tiny, I mean smaller than an actual piece of jumbo shrimp, move its arms and legs and the heartbeat was amazing! The first movements and know that they are getting stronger bring such joy and smile to my face everytime I feel it. To know that I have done the birthing process before and that I am "better prepared" for it this time makes me so much more confident and relaxed which does make for a more enjoyable pregnancy. To know that I dealt and overcame ppd after having Hayden makes me feel assured that everything will be okay! She is such a good helper to me already that I feel like this will be a pretty easy transistion. I know it will be hard work but I am not afraid of anything to go terrible. I feel that we are doing well preparing her and she seems to be understanding! Makes me so glad that we made the choice for the 3 year age difference!
I am also preparing for the new changes in a different light, as I have grown as a mother I feel more confident with my motherly instincts and decisions. I plan to make longer goals to maintain a happy healthy baby. First choice: I plan to exceed the 9 months I breastfed dd#1. I loved the bonding and the good feeling it gave me to know that I gave her the best. I am so thankful that I have these desires and that it worked so well with the first so I now have a better understanding, and passion to do it again. I have also prepared better for the homemade baby food journey that I plan to take on again. That is another wonderful feeling and I LOVED doing it with Hayden which makes me so much more motivated! My third and biggest decision is to tackle cloth diapering again and stick with it... as I did not do with Hayden. I have learned a lot more about it now, bought a great stock and I actually have a husband willing to help with it this time! We, well I, tried with DD for a few weeks and I gave up. I wish I had taken the time to know more about it and I know it would have worked. It is hard to learn something when you have gotten to a certain stress level with it. I have the energy, motivation, and "knowledge" I feel I need to suceed this time around!
Thanks for reading! I wanted to share because when people ask me how I am doing I want to tell them everything, how wonderful I feel, and how excited I am but I just can't say all this at one time! :)
So as my journey continues, I pray everyday that I will maintain this positive look at life and continue to be so thankful for all my blessings! I am so happy to share my joy! (Pray, too, that it stays through the tough days, as I know there will be tough days) :)