Hayden will be 3 years old this summer!! I believe it now how time flys by after children! I am 12 weeks pregnant today and I think this second baby will grow even faster! Hayden did everything so quickly so I hope this one will stay a "baby" for longer but I definately don't want to "baby" this one forever like some people do when they know it will be their last baby. ;) So much changes once you become a parent. Im telling you what, there are so many things I said I would never do or let me kids do and yeah... "never say never" The kids in the resturant or in the grocery store yelling and pitching the fit - I would say, "I would have better control of my child" Now that the tables have turned I understand that it is not that the parent is not in control, but only that the child.... well, is a child! It is going to happen and the question now is, "How will I handle this" Every child and mother is different in every situation and I have learned that you may have to try a couple different "modifications" to disciplinary actions to find the one that will best work for your own childs personality. For Hayden I have to always ask her "Hayden, do you understand me?" and then I have to make her repeat what I ahve said or to acknowledge it by saying "yes ma'am" while looking at me in my eye. That youngin is a bullet! If I don't have her full attention, it is like I never said/did it! The other day, nana told me that Hayden said to her in a grumbly voice "Do you understand meee???" I laughed so hard! Hey, it may not have been right for her to use that with her nana and I am sure that in these cases we talk to her about it afterwards, but at least I know that she is listening and understands that this means... "Do you get what I said to you?" Hayden is learning how to swim this summer! Nana's wonderful pool allows us to get her out there and just go! She did great last year too, I mean she would slide the slide all by herself, but this year she forgot what all she did last year and she has gotten a little more fearful of a lot of the things she use to be so fearless about. That could definately be a good thing too b/c she needs to know the difference between the two when it comes to dangerous situations but I hope she will not fear the water, learn to swim and stick with it through to next year! We were able to go to the beach this past May which was nice! Hayden loved it! She would ask to go when we got home... and now we get to go again but as a family! I am so excited! We went last year but it was a fishing trip for Justin and Hayden and I just tagged along so it wasn't a family vacation (and it was in October). We are having some friends down with us one day/night and they have Connor, Hayden's age and then Jeannie and the boys will be heading down Sun-Wed! This is just wonderful! I am ready to pull out the sand toys and build a big castle with Hayden, swim in the ocean and maybe get a sun tan? lol! I am not going to be huge and pregnant this time around over the summer so I will enjoy it while I can. I am definately not sporting a bikini but I can still get a nice tan. I think I have a little baby bump forming but still in my regular clothes!! I am so happy about that! I bought my first pair of maternity pants when I was pregnant with Hayden at 12 weeks... they usually say you start showing earlier with the second so I fiigured I would be in maternity clothes by 10 weeks.... so yeah, I think this is great! It won't be long though, I'll tell ya! Also I lost more weight than my pre-pregnancy weight after Hayden too so that has a lot to do with it. I hope I can continue to go to the gym and stay in "shape" during this pregnancy. I just want a smooth delivery and I know that will help tremendously. My ideal labor would be to wait out as much as I could at home and soak in the bath and then head to the hospital and be dialated at like 8 or 9 and then start pushing and have a natural labor....... BUTTTT being that my dues date is Dec 30th I do not think that my dream will come true. Why? Because due to insurance reasons, I really need to have this baby in 2011, not 2012. I will then have the next deductible to meet which is $1500 and we will have already met it for 2011. Our OB GYN would be billing us again in 2012 is the way I understand it so I am thinking if this baby is not here by the 28th or the 29th I will try to induce labor.... inducing labor will then lead to an epidural, lol! But we shall see!! Wow! I ahve never ever ever dreamed of having a holiday baby, much less, a Christmas/New Years baby!! This is going to be one heck of a ride! Just no pictures of this mom on Christmas morning please!! lol I have had a really pleasant pregancy this far. I mean the difference between this and the last is not a whole lot. I loved my pregnancy with Hayden. No sickness, felt great, etc. This one is the same but even less nausousness, less tiredness, less irritability... but more eating :( Uh oh! I have cut back since the beginning... that was bad! I was craving awful foods and I have just tried to learn to control it and balance it out. I am ready to find out what this little peanut is! We had an ultrasound last week and this little thing was moving around and kicking! I loved it!! We will know in Aug if it is a boy or girl. I now have a "gut" feeling that I had not had at all before and I am saying BOY! Now, who really knows but God, but we will see soon enough! I think Hayden is going to be a great BIG SISTER! She already talks about the baby and says she is going to help! I think I am really going to love this age difference.
We are still trying to sell the house and move our growing family into a better home but no takers just yet. I have come to a peace if we do have to stay in this house longer than we wish but we are still praying diligently that things change and turn around for us! We are very thankful for what we have and we know we have a good thing!
